Monday, July 23, 2012

I wanted some fried chicken too, damnit

One of the things I have always had trouble with when trying to eat healthy is not giving in when others are eating unhealthy things.

Like this past weekend when my boyfriend went to go rent a movie and brought home strawberries and chocolate to make chocolate covered strawberries. It was so sweet, but I hated it kind of. He knows I've been eating healthy and said, "Diet or no diet, you're having one of these." It was a nice, romantic gesture and all I felt was dread. So I did have one. And watched as he had a bunch...

And then yesterday, it was around lunch time and he ran to the store to get dog food, but came back with a bucket of fried chicken. He came in and made a plate and asked if I wanted anything. I just said no, kind of annoyed-like because obviously I can't eat fried chicken. I was so irritated that I just said I felt like a nap and went into the bedroom.

I know I should just do my own thing, eat the stupid vegetables/ lean protein that I need to and let everyone else (the normal people who don't have to worry about fried batter going right to their muffin top) do their own thing. I'm aware. But...

Bitch session: It just sucks. Why couldn't I have just lost the weight I had to lose and then maintain it and keep it off like a normal person. Why did I have to go and gain weight (when I already had some to lose) and put myself back in this place. I hate losing weight. I hate how much eating habits have an effect on things. Like I can't just be happy that my boyfriend brings me a nice treat.

4 comments:

Michelle said...

Oh I hear ya!!! Today at work, I'd brought a fruit & veggie smoothie which I do love, an apple with some cashew butter, which I also love, and some celery which is just okay, hehe. Then someone came nuked some crazy cheesy fatty delicious looking enchilada thing that smelled amazing, and my lunch didn't seem so great anymore. I need to keep blinders on!! Or stay at my desk at lunch time instead of seeing what everyone else has. i'm really great in short spurts but then after a week or two it's like really?? how much longer do I have to do this??? Ha! I'm probably not making you feel better but just letting you know I feel the saaaaaame way. It's the neverending battle that i'm alway so sure that THIS TIME, I will conquer. THIS TIME I WILL! WE WILL!!!

Diandra said...

This sounds as if he is either not taking your efforts seriously, or he is trying to manipulate them. I think you need to talk to that guy of yours, and fast.

Leah said...

Ugh! that's frustrating! I have come to the conclusion that I'm a food addict. Food constantly consumes my mind. If there is bread on the table or something I can't have, I'm constantly thinking about it and talking myself out of eating it. So, you need to talk to him and tell him that if he's gonna eat CRAP he needs to eat it before he enters he house. :) Just keep telling yourself that you can do it and walk away. Power through it! :)

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