Right before I moved, I got on an online dating site and actually started talking to this one guy who seemed really cool! I was surprised I actually met someone that I would want to meet so soon.
But I met him this past weekend and I like him! He seems really sweet, texts me multiple times a day, and wants to hang out again. He's nice and funny and cute. It's all good.
But here's the thing. Dating when I feel so self-conscious about my body is so nerve wrecking. I'm constantly thinking about what I look like, if I look fat.
It takes me forever to find an outfit to wear. I even sit down in front of a mirror so I can see how my stomach looks in different tops! And of course it never looks good.
And it's summertime now and I don't wear shorts. He has mentioned going hiking, and I feel like I'm not one of those girls who can throw on some cute khaki shorts and a tank top and head out for a nice hike up the mountain.
And God forbid he wants to go swimming or to the lake where I would have to wear a swim suit, which he has mentioned. Horrible...
I wish I could get out of my head and just be one of those super confident girls no matter what they look like. I do feel better about my body now that I've lost weight, but I still feel so insecure. I know I should just realize that he is interested, and therefore finds me attractive, so I should just relax, but it is easier said than done.