Feelings still kinda suck if anyone was wondering, but my head is doing a good job of setting those feelings straight. I am a million% sure that my ex-boyfriend is my EX for a reason. For the first time in over 8 years, I am honestly in a place where I know that. I don't want him. (That sentence, I don't want him, is seriously an epiphany for me.) I thought I did for a few weeks there when he was sucking me back in, but that was just a delusional fantasy I was entertaining.
I am moving with my family to NC and am going to start over (which was the plan for the last 9+ months). We're not even talking at this point, haven't had the goodbye talk (altho we've had so many over the years, who really needs another one?), maybe we'll never talk again. Knowing him, I'll hear something else, maybe he'll want to be friends (no thanks), but I am so much in a place of being over it, that I wouldn't even have a conversation. I'd love to just ignore him or be like, "Dude leave me alone" or tell him how he has no idea how little I want him, friend or otherwise. He adds nothing positive to my life. Done!
**Also, I haven't been commenting on other blogs very much, so I'm sorry! I have been kind of distracted, but then a couple times when I was reading blogs and wanted to comment, something was wrong with Blogger I think, because I couldn't comment. And it looks like it still isn't working today. Sad :(
Attitude of Gratitude: I am sooo grateful that I honestly, 100% KNOW I do not want this guy. Not now, not ever. I deserve better. It's hard to explain, but this time is different. I'd be fine if we never spoke again. That's progress, baby!